Heihei,
today actually started really well.I met bb at the usual bus stop,and I was slightly late so he had to wait for me.Then we went home and-you know how women have this sixth sense thing.I did something,I went to check his phone and I found something that I wasn't so pleasantly surprised about.In fact,I was in a rage and I was so angry.I know sometimes I can over-react a little,I know I did today.But I felt like I had every right to,because what I found made me lose trust in him.And anyone who knows me knows that I don't trust people easily.If it takes months for me to trust you,and you broke that trust,it would take twice the time for me to trust you again.It's just normal human reaction-you build a wall around yourself and you feel like nothing is going your way and you're lost at the crossroads.
All I can say is,everything takes time.
After which was Ballet mock exam which went not-so-good for me.Pirouettes was bad,but at least I managed to do the Pointe study until I got confused which foot came first.The mock examiner also said that we need to listen to the music and 'fill' it out more.Dancers would know what I mean.It means to 'fully use' the music with feet or hand movements.
Work tomorrow and I'm so tired,mentally,emotionally and physically.
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